relieving critical mass in annoying facebook memes

25 random thoughts and things about me to never be seen by anyone i know, removed from facebook to not embarrass anyone.



i was in an expressive mood. i think i have to tag 25 people including all the people who have tagged me before in this crap. I'll get on that later.



1) i suspect that the random release of unconscious thought and energy will yield profound and likely terrifying concepts and energy

2) i've hated georgia tech, i've loved georgia tech, and now I hate it again. i'm moving on.

3) i want to drop out but at this point it makes no sense.

4) i'm leaving town for an indefinite amount of time starting on an indefinite date.

5) i love so many people, it's the sorrow of losing or not being loved in return that creates such an aggressive and hostile personality.

6) i have a soul mate.

7) i would torture, murder, and desecrate anything that came between me and what i love with no regard for myself, the government, or god.

8) no fucking mercy

9) eating unhealthy food is my form of slow and deliberate suicide. lucky buddha tonight.

10) people are not actually sheep, like we all like to say. some people actually let themselves be happy, and do their best to hold onto that ideal until it requires violent, aggressive ties to a clearly idiotic ideology.

11) religious groups' stands against unsavory art forms stem from the delusion that everyone can be happy within these structured, repressed, and ideological communities. trying to combat violent media eliminates the expressive opportunities of those who cannot find peace within that structure and will create decidedly more violent and dangerous individuals who have no way to express themselves whatsoever, and once their rage boils over they will be left standing in the blood of all who force fed doctrine and prayer instead a loving but tempered indulgence into their own personal darkness.

12) perhaps the escalating fight over censorship alleviates it's own fears of such evil emerging in society. the demonization of each polar subset provides the fight needed to satisfy each side's unfulfilled unconscious rage before it becomes any worse. perhaps the constant bickering of a political war of attrition is how to have a better life for our citizens by giving them both heroes and villains.

13) the more breakthroughs we reach in medical science are simply further opportunities to solidify a two class system with advanced health care and education on one side and shit-covered labor on the other. personalized genetic therapy treatments and long life extensions will only be for the rich as we may even split into two species of man based upon availability and reliance upon health care

14) it should not be expensive to posses and surround oneself with beauty.

15) this world can be beautiful

16) my dad wants me to get a haircut. he's wanted this for years now.

17) I will never be satisfied by a job that doesn't actively challenge me and demand an emotional connection to the project in an effort to create greatness. everything I've done professionally has only served to indulge the clearly destructive design choices of clients who have no idea the mess they're asking me to create for them.

18) i keep saying that education is a con, but I only feel that way because I've downed a few semesters worth of money on freshman level mandatory classes that are genuinely wasting my time right now.

19) I've heard people describe bogost's intro to cm class as a waste of time, or at least parts of it. whoever feels this way possesses an incredibly shallow mind that is unwilling to expand their professional talents and unable to demand themselves to reach for potential genius. It was the most rewarding experience I've had at georgia tech and the best work i had ever created at the time.

20) i am only happy when I'm creating

21) sometimes singing is the only way to get me out of depression. the problem is that i become too depressed to sing. if the right song starts playing, that usually opens me up.

22) an unfulfilled life is meaningless.

23) i have thought of suicide.

24) i hate casual sex. i hate the animal necessity of it at odds with the psychological embarrassment of it. i hate the experience of self loathing from bonding with people who don't speak to my soul, and i hate the unruly child i become when unable to have that kind of connection. I've never connected emotionally with someone i had sex with before knowing them for a long time. i've also never had sex with someone i knew for a long time beforehand, so perhaps you see the dilemma.

25) i am happy sometimes, despite how i may appear. i want to make my friends happy too. i'm sorry i've brought you all down. i just don't feel connected to people here anymore, and will probably go awol sometime soon for some duration once i figure out a place to crash. i love you guys and want desperately to love more. i miss you in ways you can't imagine. i could really use a hug, and am ready to embrace a more tender side than i've put on in recent years. make sure you feel alive. if you have a warrior's spirit, do battle. if you have an artists' soul, create beauty. and if you have a lovers heart, then take in all the pain around you and shelter the dying child within under your nurturing blanket of devotion and caring. then watch as all the blood-lusting, writer's blocked, and jealous masses wage war in a battle royal of frustrated and unfulfilled lives until the smoke clears and we return to a steady harmony of creation and destruction, ready again to love until the hurt rejoins us.